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I always felt like I was missing something. I can be a little impatient but Id always wondered whats next or how long. As a kid, they tell your age, let you know the life expectancy and expect you to fulfill it with "dignity" and "success". So I always felt the time ticking. Its always up a stream rather with the flow, not in the sense of hardship but understanding.

Some can pick a title and follow it, others search and wonder while many fall into a fix by force. Have you ever thought, whats life as an animal? There purpose and mental anguish figuring it out? Its funny, cause we divide and title everything to the T.They roam here bound by the forces of nature and the hereditary tendency of their ancestors. I could sit here and tell you life means nothing or ask why are we here and go back and forth on religion and society. I'm not. See it how you feel, feel and wonder.


I feel, as if I'm fulfilling temporary fixes. Like the seasons change, or high and low we go...all the way to the end..."Cant let just anybody hold me". I guess I shouldn't say too much, or "they" might send a pretty little rock down my throat.

I just read this and said, "Its like sharing with a wall..." guess its better that way. shh.

Smile

That's not a smile. 

That's you holding it together like a damn ready to flow. 

Your eyes glowing in hope for yesterdays promises. 

Body aching for rest, cause every time you lay your head your mind is always wondering. 

Emotions becoming numb to the world around you, knowing its ever so familiar face.

I said smile, yet you cant wondering how long it would last.

Breakdown

Worry not I say, fear not and move forward.

In unknown lands, I seek something to hold on to.

I don't want this world, yet so amazing here

Stop, let me get a hold.

Winds began to strengthen

Rain pouring from high above.

I look around to seek something familiar

From the heaven we described above to the grounds of hell

What I called home began to become my hell

What am I suppose to do, when I'm not in control

I can say I'm strong but when forces unknown began to move

I'm no more then a mere leaf in a gust of wind.

Hush now, let nature take its course

For the unknown know, the unexplainable have there explanations

Fear not, yet take a path that you can grow in

Worry not I say, fear not and move forward.